Okayy… I had a teacher last year who has a daughter who is a junior ( iam a senior). The teacher said her daughter is a fanatic about running & changes her clothes & runs as SOOON as she comes home from school. This includes raining in the pouring rain or deep snow. She is GORGEOUS, SKINNYYYY, naturally blonde & all the guys think she is hot. Nonetheless, she has beautiful clothes, friends & is naturally ATHLETIC! I have a dumpy body & fat ass and HUGE saddle bags no matter how thin I get. My boobs are too small for my body (i mean they are not proportioned to my fat ass & saddle bags). I have HORRIBLE legs & have not worn shorts ONCE this summer! (Xcept to bed, boxer shorts). The doctor and ppl tell me that I am the “perfect weight,” but I think I am atrocious. I used to lift weights, & not gonna lie, I had lovely tricepts. Then I got sick and lost muscle & then seriously became chubby, or “obese” (for liek 6 months & i have lost liek 18 lbs since & am considered “perfect” by medical professionals). I have some kind of joint problems & get frequent tingling of my leg and arms that the doctors cannot diagnose despite copious tests (i eat gluten & dairy free, so pleaseee dont go into that. this helped me shed the inital 10 lbs in a couple of weeks). This comes & goes and often interferes w/ my ability to exercise (the heat makes my legs & arms go numb & my face and upper arms become pink/purple flushing with it). My dad says that I “do not exercise at all & never will”. My folks keep putting me down, but goood lord… this makes me feel incapable & yet i feel like my body is never goood enough anyways! I eat UNBELIEVABLY healthy & low glycemic vegan (sometimes i eat fish), but yet i always feel unnatractive (not my face, but my body). I used to run (liek 3 years ago), but my joints would be EXCRUCIATING after a while & now when i run i LITTERALLY trip over my own feet! I either want to be reallly skinny & petite w/ hip & rib bones jutting out (like Nicole Richie), or reaally buff w/ 6 pack or tricepts. I knoe these bodies might deter me, b/c they are hard to reach & maybee hard to achieve. But I personally HATE the “curvy, soft” female figure that some women try to achieve. I dont want a body like that at all. yuck. My mother tells me that I have “curvy hips” & my grandmother tells me that I am shapely & have a nice butt. I hate it when they tell me this & am offended. Katie Price (Jordan) has the PERFECT body & i want her 32FF boooobs & slim hips! But is this classmate of mine so motivated to exercise b/c she is naturally skinny & athletic, yet i am a DUMP w/ noo coordination (in 5th grade I was the seccond to last runner running the mile in GYM class. The only kid behind me was the fat kid w/ aspergers.)
how can i get myself to exercisee?
i try not to compare myself to other girls anymore, but that does not help my MOTIVATION to exercise?
the irony is… ppl at school & ppl have told me that i seem verry confident & outgoing. also, guys check me out a lot. idk why… deep inside i am writhing about my body.
8:07 am on August 2nd, 2010
well, the truth is, if you want something bad enough, you’d go for it and work out as hard as you can to achieve it. So Im assuming that maybe subconciously you actually ARE pretty content where you are now….???
8:09 am on August 2nd, 2010
Exercise is addictive. Especially once the results come pouring in. The feeling it can give you is mind blowing as well. And it’s a social thing. Do it.
8:13 am on August 2nd, 2010
If the doctors say you are the perfect weight and guys check you out then most likely you are not that unatractive so you might want to try seeing yourself for what you are not what you aren’t I am fat as hell I way easily 250 on a good day on a bad day more like 300 but, BONES STICKING OUT IS VERY VERY UNATRACTIVE ITS GROSS AND MOST GUYS ARE TURNED OFF BY IT do not do that it is discusting to look at and no one likes it believe me. ribs sticking out how is that attractive to you really that is nasty horrible gross as hell its like looking at the physical adaptation of ugly. excercise it not something you just do its something you have to be motivated to do if there is something you want you look at excercise as a way to get that.
8:20 am on August 2nd, 2010
It’s normal at your age to feel like this about your looks. What’s important is that you don’t hang on to this misinformation once you are an adult. So you need to be positive, to look in the mirror and say Out Loud to yourself “that is one beautiful bod, girl” or something like that – and after a while, you will come to see that everyone else isn’t wrong about your looks being great.
32FF involves expensive surgery, perfect for those with lots of cash and no self-esteem.